Big 9

How is it possible that tomorrow I will have a 9 year old?  Cameron is only one year away from double digits.  I can't stand it.  When I was pregnant with Cameron I often wondered what he would be like.  What would he look like?  What would he grow up to do?  Would he like sports?  I remember when he was born I knew him.  It was like he had always been with me. From the very second the doctor handed him to me there was a connection unlike anything I had ever felt before.  The day Cameron was born started my adventure of motherhood.  When he was a week old I was left alone with him for the first time.  I cried...and cried...and cried...I sat with him propped up on my knees and looked at his tiny sleeping face and wondered how in the world I would ever be able to teach him and provide for him the environment that he would need.  I was terrified.  I wondered why in the world anyone ever thought I was capable of raising this tiny little thing.  Now here we are nine years later.  I am still terrified.  I worry.  I wonder.  I pray. I pray a lot.  Cameron is a tremendous blessing to me.  He comes with challenges but because of those challenges I try harder.  I pray more and I appreciate simple things more than I would have without him.  I love so many things about Cameron.  Some of my favorites...he still wants me to snuggle with him at night before he falls asleep.  He likes me to sing The Littlest Angel to him at Christmas time.  He is passionate.  When he takes an interest in something he learns everything he can about it.  He tries really hard.  He never fights me about homework or piano practice.  He is brilliant.

This is Cameron and his principal at the A honor assembly.  Cameron has made the A honor roll EVERY trimester that he has been in school.  Every time he acts genuinely surprised and super excited to have made the honor roll.  I love that he cares so much about his grades.  He is a treat.  He pushes me in many ways.  Some good...Some bad but together somehow we keep on going and growing and helping each other along the way.  I love him more than I could ever put into words.  I have a great life.  I have had many great days but the day he was born still remains the best day of my life.